Lost

Its funny how someone can stay cooped up at home all day on the internet. I do that sometimes but even then i do get bored, even if there is a game that i'm very into at that point of time but i never say no when anyone jios me to go out, to walk walk or even juz for a cuppa and some tkss. Would it kill to miss even a single moment on the net? Are there so many games or porn sites for you to play/surf/watch? Play/surf/watch beh sian /WANK beh tia (no pain)?

I really cannot fathom what these people do at home!!!!

Alrite, the moanings and groans are for someone who is quite close to me and has recently got back on "the cyberworld" (got back his/her internet la). I juz asked him/her to go jalan jalan to get some stencils for my room and guess wat. He/She needs to rest... REST? ON A WEEKEND?! WHAT A LOAD OF BULL.

OK.

Mebbie he/she really needs rest. Weak body or mental constitution. I'm actually a very understanding person. I accept that. BUT TELL ME, Y IS HE/SHE STILL AWAKE PLAYING GAME AT 4AM IN THE BLOODY MORNING? REST MY ASS! BULL CRAP! As my cousin would say.

But oh well. It has not been unexpected. He/She has been like that all the time. All my efforts to change him/her has been futile all these years. I'm a nobody. I'm lousy. I don't even know why i care so much. DUH.

I feel stupid.

I really do.

But what for?

He/She mite think i'm domineering... Perhaps. However, i just don't want him/her to rot at home and complain that he/she do not have any actual friends who will jio them go out or listen to their woes.

WHY do i care? YOU tell ME!

I feel i'm taken for granted. Its true that i have my weaknesses, i'll deny that of course, HEY i'm a sore loser, its true but i'll deny that too! Who the f*** in their right mind would want to be a bloody loser?! I feel like i'm taken advantage of. I really feel like saying no to all requests... Perhaps i should. I should be more selfish.

Guess I'm really tired.

Sorry.